Time

TIME
we never seem to have enough of it, time flies, where has the time gone? so many statements about time and yet it is always the same....we just never have enough of it.
TIME....Before the car accident, i never had enough time. I'd work 8-10 hours a day and spend every weekend catching up on shit.
well now, i'm working 5 hours, 3 hours paid by medical; no overtime at all. so, now i'm broke and have tons of time. Weekends, shit i don't do anything anymore besides relax and go to the bar on Saturday night. the local has karoke and as much as i hate hearing some people sing, it can be quite funny and besides, there are always lots of ladies. But, i'm there to have a few beers and relax. this past Saturday this woman, a real pain in the ass to everyone (I've nick named her Diane Chambers - as from the show Cheers, as she has an opinion about everyone and won't shut up) is pestering me about why i should go hit on these nice looking women. my thought was that i'm relaxing, i feel good and if they want me, they know where i am. ok, well that didn't happen...it did Friday night, met a nice lady; she walked away from her date to come say HI. i thought it was kool.
back to TIME. Weekends now, relax. Weekdays, i actually do a lot more than before. With only 5 hours work, i should have more time. But when i start the day on muscle relaxers and heat, get off work to come home to muscle relaxers and ice, well it sucks. Feels like an 8 hour day of work. i hate the pain, i hate even having to think ahead about doing normal shit as it may hurt like a bitch.
TIME, weekdays last too long, the pain is bad. i sleep less these days, makes the days even longer. Any other time, i would luv to take a walk, exercise, but i can't as i know i need to go into work as fresh as possible to last 5 hours. To get thru the day, to not get mad about shit, to relax as much as possible, day dreaming can help. for months I'd lost my creativity. i would day dream about things i wanted to build, things i wanted to do, things i wanted to write. "Eating Peanuts" refers to many things, a new story, a way of relaxing, a distraction that can suspend the pain for hours. Not to mention, it just sounds goofy. What exactly is it.....Most read on, not giving that up yet. TIME, during this time at home, must keep mind rolling or I'll wind up a couch potato for sure. And just where did "couch potato" come from? is a potato supposed to be lazy? Any more than a corn cob or green bean? a tit seems lazy, could be a "couch tit"? that sounds weird too. Speaking of weird, i'm listening to Roger Water's album 'Amused to Death', this is a weird album, much like his others. And as odd as it is, it is so easy to listen to.
so, trying to stay amused, i play some dumb games, post on here, add occasionally to my web pages (i get bored with those occasionally too) and then there is the online personals. Trying to find someone that compliments, challenges and completes me. Damn, when i was a kid, I'd never thought about any of that shit. the women did, hell i just wanted the sex. Now older, it's the other way around. Women have tried for the relationships, they failed and they just want sex. Not that is bad, but now i need more....that is so funny.
ok, i keep getting distracted on my topic of TIME and now i actually have to do some things before work. Yuck, one of those things is call the insurance company and raise hell. Will have to update on that later and also have to tell about the fight i was almost in Friday...Quite funny actually.