Some people

the title of this entry might seem like a sarcastic remark or that maybe i'm going into a rant.
but it's not.

last night i stopped in my 'regular' bar; it's the Friday's that is less than a mile away. started going in there about a month or so before my accident, and then became a regular once that happened.
still remember that day too well, May 27th 2004. i was at Friday's for a while after it was all over, think i had 6 beers and never felt them as i was still in shock.

as time goes by, i maybe in there several times a week or maybe just once.
different reasons for going or not, but i'm glad i stopped in last night.

on of my favorite bartenders was about to leave when she saw me and gave me a huge hug.
from either my lack of going in or just not seeing her, i haven't seen Katelyn in so very long. she was out to have her baby, a beautiful little girl (Kylee i think is her name) that is 4 months old.

Katelyn is one of those people that i just really enjoy talking to. it's not a bartender thing where you tell them all sorts of shit.
and granted a lot of what i say may not be anything she'd ever remember, but she is always interested in hearing.

the thing about Katelyn that has me in the blog today is that her eyes and that smile are incredible. some women know that have that certain smile that will get there way and then some have no clue that something as simple as a smile can make others lite up.
as we were talking, she also made comments about the drunk guy next to me that was mostly staring at her chest.
granted, it was something i noticed too, i mean it would be hard not to...lol
but as we talked, i even told her that i could just talk to her for hours, that her smile and those eyes had me so entranced, that they last thing i would even think of, was to stare any where else.
she is just one lady with an incredible smile and gorgeous eyes. ....ok, and even after her baby, she has a great body too. but that's not why i like talking to her.
i know i'm a flirt and a charmer at times, but i wouldn't try anything with her.
why?

because she has someone in her life and i respect that.
becuase i know, no mattter how sweet i am, that i doubt i'm her type.....lol. shit, i don't know what type i am... :-)
and because, i see her smile and looking into her eyes, had me think of only one thing.

i'm a strange creature, different than most guys in that i can talk to women. i can flirt and charm and most of all listen as i am just being myself. as much of a talker that i am, i'm an even better listener.

in this life, i want all i can can get.

now, some one may read that and say that is what all guys say.
but with me, i'm not talking about sex.
i'm talking about life and love.
i constantly need information.
and most of all, i want to feel it all inside my heart and soul.

as i feel like i need as much life and love i can find, i also need to learn as much as i can. learning to me is a hunger like nothing i have ever felt. i like to learn about people, i just can't seem to stop.