Story begins

as i may have said before, i wanted to start writing again, so now i am.
these aren't in any order of chapters and haven't been proof read, i alwys leave that for later.

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this isn't what i thought my life would turn out to be.
we all have these ideas when we are growing up, mostly from seeing family around us and our friends' families. i wanted my own family.
something that seemed so simple when i was a child looks now harder to get than winning the lottery.
how did i get here?
why did these things have to happen to me?
why was choosen for these duties?
and most of all, why have i been denied love?

i remember when i was young, my older brother Lance never seemed to like me around. there was 12 years between us, when i was entering school he was getting ready to leave. he was a smart one, graduating a year early and going onto college. even in my youngest years, i remember hearing my parents talk about how smart he was and that at my age i was just as smart, if not more.
as years passed, Lance would hardly ever come home, i felt like an only child. even more so, i felt alone as my parents were always going somewhere and i was usually left with my nanny Hanna, should was like a 2nd mom to me.
Lance graduated college several times, i think he may even have gotten a doctorite in law and or law enforcement. not exactly what mom and dad thought he would do, but they were proud.
when he finished, he was going to Europe for a couple years to study with someone he met in college. to me, i think he was just going about a girl.
Hanna was with me when we heard the news. mom and dad had gone out town for the weekend for some time together. they had a flight back, the flight crashed. i was 12.

Hanna stayed with me till they could find Lance. no one had any idea exactly where he was. then Hanna got sick, she had cancer. Hanna died just months after my parents. i was put into a foster home.
my family gone, my brother dissapeared, i was really alone. i buried myself in school.
i graduated school a year early, like my brother....i had a higher grade point average.

i was recruited by the army. they promised me the world and they delivered. i worked on projects that had other stumped, the devotion i had to my work got me noticed a lot.
i was entrusted into a new top secret project. the kind of stuff you read in comic books, this was real.